Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Who Were We.


Who were you?  I’d like to know.
Who were you really?
You weren’t the old woman that lived upstairs,
Shut off in a world of smoke, cheap lotion, and daytime television.
You weren’t an example I should have set for myself, one that would
Guide me away from that which brought you down.
Tubes, life-giving tubes, transporting life to lungs and probably a heart
Already dead.
Who were you?
Who am I?
I wanted to know more.
About you.
About the life you lived.
Actually lived.
The secret life.
Not one told to me by others that supposedly knew you;
Not the one black ink stamped into and absorbed by cheap newsprint;
Expected, and forgotten.
No, that wasn’t your life. That was your death.
I already know about that.
The closest I got to an understanding was the painful squint of your eyes
When I accidently pulled your hair.
When I sat down to say that I loved you,
When what I really meant was goodbye.
Love, though it is loudly proclaimed throughout the world as the one thing that ties us
Together;
The one thing that perseveres;
The one thing that it is beyond selfish;
It is also a thing that is entirely projected by us,
By our humanity.
Us, with our individual minds, and organs, and passions…
Where is the real connection?
What defines that which has no previous definition to compare it to?
To be abstracted by;
To be discerned from.
Who has ever truly been without?
I don’t have the answer.

Wednesday, February 27, 2013

Some Moment in Time


I feel frozen in time.
I look around and imagine I’m on some sort of space shuttle,
Surrounded by teams of researchers wondering what went wrong;
I’m the one without any oxygen left in the tank.
These murmuring voices tell me everything,
Though none of which I can hear –
I know I’ve only just arrived, but
I think it’s time to go.
Our sun, this one completely normal star,
With its gases and fire, and
Its burning, pressurized core desires release,
Though the outward restraint of laws, and of measurable influences
Will not allow it.
As I step outside, I look up at this Sun and squint my eyes
In response to its brilliance, but
Also, I try to take a closer look

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Brings Us Back Again


A message spoken to the messenger,
A current unto the wind
(Brings us back again)
Further unto leaves
Startled by the everyman
(Brings us back again)
Sorcery through sand
A blade which harvests
(Brings us back again)
Eventually, time endeavored
Lazarus, thus undaunted
(Brings us back again)
Swirling and twirling,
Hurling, unfurling,
Recoiled and ready;
So strong and steady.
Shouldn’t we?
Couldn’t we?
How else can one explain?
How to go forth and
Return once again.

The passage of time,
Like so many
Rounds of
Redundant ammunition
(Brings us back again)

Brought back once more
To believe, to receive
Unserving, unseen –
When one becomes two;
When three becomes one;
Who is the lesser son?
From within.
From within, we ask ourselves
Where is the release?
Where is the relief?
Forgiveness
(Brings us back again)

Sunday, January 27, 2013

We Come Back Around.


Towards another place in time
(Forward to a place where we unwind)
A gap or a bridge, as yet undefined
(A distinct and unflinching light)
Surrenderer, your time is not mine
(Disbeliever, enduring the day)
A peace or a burden, clandestine
(War and the outcome, singing (reigning) praise)
Do you want to walk awhile and work it all out?
(Do you want to talk awhile and do away (with) without?)
Alone with your breath and your thoughts, and your doubts,
(Together, in one breath, in two thoughts, from our mouths)
Don’t shoulder the safety; the latch forgets to forgive
(Unholster it safely, a life which has yet to live)
And through promise and drink and in flight, we come back around.
(And through unlikeliness and pride)
We come back around.

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

There was a Kemp went forth. (Whitman study/exercise... I had fun anyways)


There was a Kemp went forth every day,
And the first something he saw, he embodied, sometimes filled with awe,
And it would inspire or depress or confuse or remind him of some other thing,
Perhaps not yet thought about in that same way, or since,
And these instances of perceived wisdom or at least understanding sustained, sometimes for many a year.

Dandelions and caterpillars were a fuzzy fragility,
A conduit for change and the process of weeding out,
The screech of a mocking- or “kill-cat-” bird announces a forthcoming swoop, an intermittently successful defense against the preying upon of its young by his seriously deranged house-cat,
The same fierce feline who emerged victorious against snooping German shepherds and projectile-carrying small children alike,
The same beautifully terrible creature removed from his world out of the blue one day,
The sudden still air met with relief, and deep sadness.

The highway cutting through nearby, many times it he contemplated, it complicated, and for some devastated,
Eventually straightened out yet crooked still,
The memories it created did not die and the manicured grasses are still green from a fertile soil ripe with a forlorn sense of more preferable outcomes.

His own parents, he with wavering faith in a foundation of stone, she with the scars where the youngest was removed from her, also in wavering faith,
Together, they that worked hard to simply provide, enduring, giving and taking away,
She who left and he who stayed, the house not of his blood,
Where then it came crumbling down, the smoke of gasoline fire still nearby,
Off and away, the brother defends himself for country, service term obligations, college funds, and there the Kemp, onward in his own way.

There, along the way, were the lessons,
Of the snapping turtle, glistening near the gurgling stream, alluring yet fierce, hungry for fish and little boys’ fingers,
Of the field of the copper headed snake, only a baby, yet possessing a frightful allegiance to a genetic code, a cold-blooded manual detailing the ways of things,
The Kemp, unaware of such a silly thing, scooped Up and Away before an unpleasant day at the hospital,
Giggles and squeals, unaware of any little, or big thing at all.

Fireworks explode and the words of God expose and the Kemp lost in the woods, on the side of the road, in the classroom, on a bicycle, in a bedroom,
Belongings piled up in the back of his car, the kindness of beautiful, misshapen strangers and friends, More lessons, more reasons, more seasons,
He learns of these, and through broken strings and the mumbled written word, a brown bottle coinciding with the green leaves,
The yin and yang of an old-womanhood left behind at the crumbling foundation, voicing middle-road passions and regrets, and yet,
How it all came to be, the cracked pavement, the low-burning gas-log, an oxygen tube filled with smoke,
These things became part of the Kemp who went forth every day, and into every night, who even now still goes, and who will always go forth, unto the winds.















They Who Cry Out


Can I slide this shovel your way?
Because I’d prefer you be the one
Who screams and cries out…
For an ending…
With enough time left
Before tomorrow begins.
Muscles, though sitting ragged
On shivering bones,
Still possess a strength
Disguised as weakness;
As pity;
As love.
It’s more than enough to
Carry me through.

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

A Man, Raised.


A man is raised to be one way, and brought up to be taught.
Shaken off and unshackled, the fear settles like a fine dust on a neatly folded token, or flag.
Are these moments all at once proud, focused, and persevering?
Who decides that?
Is a promise meant to be kept, or is the dynamic alone the truth?
Faith. Hope. Defiance. Symptoms of an early grave, or an early bird
(Who’s keeping score, anyways?)
Accompany the lonesome protagonist down a desperate, crowded, crumbling highway.
Shoulders sagging; guardrails torn to shreds.
The imagery is universal.